Christmas Poem

I see the countless Christmas trees around the world below. With tiny lights, like heaven’s stars reflecting on the snow. The sight is so spectacular, please wipe away that tear. For I’m spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year. I hear the many Christmas songs that people hold so dear. But the sounds of music can’t compare with the Christmas choir up here. For I have no words to tell you the joy their voices bring. For it is beyond description to hear as angels sing. I know how much you miss me, I see the pain inside your heart. For I’m spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year, although we are apart. I can’t tell you of the splendor or the peace here in this place. Can you just imagine Christmas with our Savior, face to face? I’ll ask Him to light your spirit as I tell Him of your love. So then pray for one another as you lift your eyes above. So please let your hearts be joyful and let your spirit sing, for I am spending Christmas in heaven and I’m walking with the King! Ben- I miss you dearly this Christmas. I miss how excited you are for the holidays. You and I both are like little “Christmas elves.” You loved how I decorated the house with lights, the tree with ornaments and the house with decorations. I could not wait to show you the final product when everything was complete- presents under the tree and all! You loved it just as much as I did! I remember leaving the lights on the tree on all night as we stayed up late talking. Those were my favorite moments… you on the couch and me in my bed. You would fall asleep telling me– “I don’t snore” and then I would wake up to you snoring. I would try to whisper “Ben, you’re snoring” but that never worked. Eventually, I would grab anything in arms length to throw at you to wake you up (Winnie the Pooh always worked)… finally you would wake up and ask me “What?” I would tell you “Ben– you’re snoring.” You would always say– “I don’t know what you’re talking about– I don’t snore!” and roll over. I would laugh so hard– you never believed that you snored! I know that you can still see all the holiday decorating that I have done this year and are with me this Christmas, but I miss your beautiful smile and your laugh. I miss how excited you would get to eat Christmas cookies and exchange presents. As I listen to Christmas music I think of the night we sat in your car and listened to Christmas music until so late (your grandfather’s tape). You had your eyes closed and you were feeling the music so deeply that I didn’t want to say a word and take away from that moment. Please know that I love you from the bottom of my heart, and miss you this holiday season more than anything. I bought a Tim McGraw ornament this year and put it on the tree for you. Thank you Ben for looking out for me still. You have proven to me that you are still involved in my life, although it is in spirit. In my dreams and in my heart you will always be. I love you Ben Garcia and I thank you for being my closest friend and my angel. Merry Christmas! Jenn Estabreezy